getting there

well it has been a long road for me and my back pain. had lots of procedures tried on me and went through a lot of different types of treatment. but i think i have finally made it! i have been going through physical therapy for about 5 weeks now and i can see i difference in how i can move and well be pain free. i do have to try to remember to stretch in the morning but overall i feel pretty good. its been a long time coming!
i have a back to work program that is going to be intense, but i know if i can get through it i can get a clear call from my doctor about returning back to work. it has been Feb. of 07 sense i have worked any type of job. for me it seemed like forever. because i am the type of person that needs to move. needs to keep busy. so if you see me at the church racing around that is why. i noticed i only feel good and work good when i am being in a fast place environment. i have worked in several different jobs. law enforcement to factory. wrecker operator to a corian fabricator to a firefighter. not in that order and some all at the same time. but they all were fast paced places. i loved doing all these jobs but with the injury i was unable to keep them.
i have a new job in mind and i know that this job is for me. with my limitations still lurking around being in children ministry is going to be great. it can be so hard on Sunday that i end up napping as soon as i get home. it may not seem like a great job, but i dig it.!
with me exercising and getting some more treatments along the side like epidural shots, and a back rub. i believe that the work force will not be far ahead. i am pushing hard and working hard to get to my goal. this way when baby Micah is older i know that i will be able to pick him up and not worry about my back hurting later on. it is so amazing to see God not heal me, but point me to were i need to go. to show me, myself that it is goals and time that will get me better. not a magical drug, or surgery it is getting to know God, and finding yourself that will get you were you need to be. and i firmly believe that is what He is doing to me!