working hard!

well, things have been going great. i am in my 2 week of work conditioning, and all i can say is wow. i have been pushing real hard to get back to work. it has been sense Feb. that i worked at a job. many of you know that i got hurt fighting my very first fire as a certified firefighter. and the let down knowing that i will never return to that job was huge! i love fire. and i always wanted to be a firefighter when i was growing up but, when i got hurt i was in bad shape. mostly because my walk with God...well i was at a stand still. i did not have much of a relationship with Him. it took two years to find Him. after i accepted Christ i found a new meaning to life. a new passion. all over a new person. i had gotten off of my anti-depressants and quite taking my pain killers. i was giving it all to God. putting him in control of my life. knowing that he can heal me.
well He had a plan for me, not just to heal me on the spot but for me to go to him every time i hurt. and he would show me the right way. He had lead me to new doctors and new treatment that i questioned. but did anyway. some hurt worse and some made me feel great. well now i am going through a therapy system that will put myself back into a working environment. i have been pushing myself so had that at the end of my session i feel great. i will always have pain but He will be in control of it.
every time i step into the gym i have new goals. whether it would be going 3 miles on a rowing machine or running a mile i have goals. why i do it. its because it gives me something to reach for. and to push hard to get. goals are important. plus when you reach them you feel great. i have a goal in life now and that is to learn as much as i can about children ministry. not only that but to be a children pastor. plus many more. but those goals i am reaching hard to get, but with God in control i know he will not lead me wrong.