I have been working out now for some time and all i can say is wow. i can sure feel the difference in my strength. i am not quite there yet, but i am on my way. tomorrow i do weigh ins just to see how much i have lost. i know i am not far from my gaol. which is 155. but i will get there. i have to say that over all all the work that i have been putting in my body has paid off. the time was def. worth it. now i have a new goal. and that is to run a marathon...yeah just something that i can say i did. one of my great friends has been pushing me every time we run and i go one more lap than i did that following week i have a little bit till the marathon but i am determined to run the thing. not sure if it will be a half or the full but i will do it. you would be surprised on how much further you can go when you have someone there pushing you. plus it helps to keep your mind off of what you are doing.
little Micah is growing like normal. seems like he does a new thing everyday now. but he still runs around the room saying dadadadada. its cute. we are trying new words and new foods everyday. its a good mix. but he does repeat a lot of what i do now. thats kind of scary, but he is doing good. and so is esha. her belly is looking very cute! she has the whole glowing thing going on now and wow wee. she is beautiful. we are hopeing this time for a girl but will be happy with either or.we shall see.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
things left behind
i often wounder about what life. whats is the purpose and why am i here? why are we all here? i am sure you all have asked that question some point in your life also. but have you found the answer? i have been thinking about all the skills, talents and passions i have, and how i can use them. why i even have them. and why am i not using them all. do you have any that you don't use? i am sure you do.
my wife and i have been reading "the purpose driven life" by Rick Warren. the book has been sitting on my self for some time now untouched, i picking it up one night and reading the first few pages i thought man i am going to do this. there was so much good information that i need that i wanted to do it with esha. so one night i grabbed it and started telling her about it and now we read it nightly. so far i can relate to this book. things hit right at home when i read through the chapters. tonights was great. What drives your life? is it guilt,resentment and anger,fear, materialism, or approval? a little but of everything for me. but i woke me up a bit, the biggest one for me is to have the approval of others. and fearing what they think of me. am i living up to there standards? like for instance my tattoo. many people look down at them. mine is plain as day on my right forearm. its a cross with three nails in it. i found it to be a great reminder for myself to live for God. and also to stand up for what i believe in. some say that i should not need a reminder but i tell you it keeps me in check. and out of trouble... but down here i get looks. so i think to myself what are they thinking about? are they judging me?
i always fear what others think of me, trying to please everyone! i want to use all of my talents and passions but as i read (and from what others tell me) i need to stop. yeah i do have a lot to give, but i need to focus on what it is i am giving and how/who i am giving it to. a good question for me to keep in mind, is this work or use of my passion/ talent going towards work for God? if its not than i need not to do it. plus i need not to worry about what others are going to say because i am not going to do it. whatever it may be.
so far i am learning a lot form this book. i know it will continue. if you have not read this book you need to. when you have questions like why am i here and what am i doing with my life. it makes you think about everything that God has giving you, and is there a purpose for your life.
my wife and i have been reading "the purpose driven life" by Rick Warren. the book has been sitting on my self for some time now untouched, i picking it up one night and reading the first few pages i thought man i am going to do this. there was so much good information that i need that i wanted to do it with esha. so one night i grabbed it and started telling her about it and now we read it nightly. so far i can relate to this book. things hit right at home when i read through the chapters. tonights was great. What drives your life? is it guilt,resentment and anger,fear, materialism, or approval? a little but of everything for me. but i woke me up a bit, the biggest one for me is to have the approval of others. and fearing what they think of me. am i living up to there standards? like for instance my tattoo. many people look down at them. mine is plain as day on my right forearm. its a cross with three nails in it. i found it to be a great reminder for myself to live for God. and also to stand up for what i believe in. some say that i should not need a reminder but i tell you it keeps me in check. and out of trouble... but down here i get looks. so i think to myself what are they thinking about? are they judging me?
i always fear what others think of me, trying to please everyone! i want to use all of my talents and passions but as i read (and from what others tell me) i need to stop. yeah i do have a lot to give, but i need to focus on what it is i am giving and how/who i am giving it to. a good question for me to keep in mind, is this work or use of my passion/ talent going towards work for God? if its not than i need not to do it. plus i need not to worry about what others are going to say because i am not going to do it. whatever it may be.
so far i am learning a lot form this book. i know it will continue. if you have not read this book you need to. when you have questions like why am i here and what am i doing with my life. it makes you think about everything that God has giving you, and is there a purpose for your life.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
thinking out loud, should i be?
OK so i have been working out now with this new program for a while. 4 weeks to be exact. and i get invited to run at night. so i thought OK i will for a little while. maybe a couple of laps would help me shed the last few pounds that i need to reach my goal. so i take up on the offer, well we talk smack saying how she was slower than i and i was slower than her. me thinking that i have been doing good with this program i should have no problem beating her at running. X style right..some may not get that.! but anyways i go running with her on my light week, the week i was suppose to rest and take it easy. think again.
the first night i lost count on how many laps we did. i think it was 6 or so. ( mile and a half) but i get done and the next morning i am sore. no boggy been sore before. but than she calls me up hey want to run tonight. OK, but i am going to go easy. nope she pushed me to do 4 laps. next day. you can see were this is going. so i was thinking.... i need to tire her out. i need to push her to her max. after talk to her we are going to do p90x together. ha ha, master plan. now i can be on the same bring her down to my level. and it failed. after doing kenpo one night we ran 4 laps and walked about 12. thinking the whole time man is she going to call it a night soon. nope. after talking with her husband he informed me that it is nearly imposable to beat her at running. so i am thinking yay. i am going to widdle away to nothing.
so you may be asking why i do this. well i like to work out and stay in shape. it help keep my back pain away and gives me more energy. so i love it. but why if i complain so much that i am tired and being lazy that i do this. well its because after we run and workout we talk. mostly about God and what He is doing in our lives. talking with someone about problems, struggles, happy times, and sad times always puts you in a better mood. when you can go to someone who is more spiritually advanced and have them give you ideas and guidance about certain things it makes thing a whole lot easy er. i go over board to get better connected with God. and those who serve Him. i push myself sometime too far to get that 30 min of time of wisdom and knowledge. thing that i know and that i don't.i am willing to go far beyond everything that i have done to seek His word. i took a stand to lead myself in a better life, and to speak into the lives of others. i thrive on what He has done to others, how they once were lost but now am found.
now i do like working out. and i love running. i am just using this as an example on how i keep God in my life. i know i need more and i do read my bible and go to church, but you always need more. you need good spiritual friends who are there for you in every way passable. i am so thankful that God has put this couple in our lives.my wife and i are so thankful for you three and what you are doing for us, and with us. i can see that God is using you in areas that you may not see. i know He has a great plan for your whole family! i do love the time together and you putting up with my complaining and whining. only esha should have to do that.....but you do. so thank you both!!!i look forward to more nights of pushing my limits and seeing what you are made of, to see if i can out run you. thanks again for everything you have done! we love you all!
if you don't have anyone in your life like that than you need to find some. the church is a good place to start. stay away from the bars and look at what you see Sunday moring. i guarantee that someone there is looking for the same thing that you are.
the first night i lost count on how many laps we did. i think it was 6 or so. ( mile and a half) but i get done and the next morning i am sore. no boggy been sore before. but than she calls me up hey want to run tonight. OK, but i am going to go easy. nope she pushed me to do 4 laps. next day. you can see were this is going. so i was thinking.... i need to tire her out. i need to push her to her max. after talk to her we are going to do p90x together. ha ha, master plan. now i can be on the same bring her down to my level. and it failed. after doing kenpo one night we ran 4 laps and walked about 12. thinking the whole time man is she going to call it a night soon. nope. after talking with her husband he informed me that it is nearly imposable to beat her at running. so i am thinking yay. i am going to widdle away to nothing.
so you may be asking why i do this. well i like to work out and stay in shape. it help keep my back pain away and gives me more energy. so i love it. but why if i complain so much that i am tired and being lazy that i do this. well its because after we run and workout we talk. mostly about God and what He is doing in our lives. talking with someone about problems, struggles, happy times, and sad times always puts you in a better mood. when you can go to someone who is more spiritually advanced and have them give you ideas and guidance about certain things it makes thing a whole lot easy er. i go over board to get better connected with God. and those who serve Him. i push myself sometime too far to get that 30 min of time of wisdom and knowledge. thing that i know and that i don't.i am willing to go far beyond everything that i have done to seek His word. i took a stand to lead myself in a better life, and to speak into the lives of others. i thrive on what He has done to others, how they once were lost but now am found.
now i do like working out. and i love running. i am just using this as an example on how i keep God in my life. i know i need more and i do read my bible and go to church, but you always need more. you need good spiritual friends who are there for you in every way passable. i am so thankful that God has put this couple in our lives.my wife and i are so thankful for you three and what you are doing for us, and with us. i can see that God is using you in areas that you may not see. i know He has a great plan for your whole family! i do love the time together and you putting up with my complaining and whining. only esha should have to do that.....but you do. so thank you both!!!i look forward to more nights of pushing my limits and seeing what you are made of, to see if i can out run you. thanks again for everything you have done! we love you all!
if you don't have anyone in your life like that than you need to find some. the church is a good place to start. stay away from the bars and look at what you see Sunday moring. i guarantee that someone there is looking for the same thing that you are.
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