well things are going good. Micah is up to 14 lbs. and 25 inches long. ya! getting to be more active. and always laughing. we started to give him rice cereal, and i don't think he likes it much. but he is taking it very good.
i got a chance to attend this past weeks service at new point. and let me tell you that it was a great and powerful message. you can see last weeks at the link. i love how Dwight describes the family and the Church. it will get your attention!! now being stuck is something that i have been for a long time. i had been sitting around for two years and waiting for my back to get better. now the first year i just sat around. stayed at home, and did nothing. i seen my docs every month and just kept getting pills. over time i had developed a addiction to these pills. over time of taking them i had a tolerance with them. i started to take Oxycontin. now if you don't know what that is it is a pill that cancer patients will take to cover there pain. its 10 times as strong of liquid morphine. strong stuff. they even give it to crack cocaine addicts as a "safer" drug. i was on that for about six months. my pain was just unbearable. i had formed an environment in my life that its all about the drugs. i did not care about much. my wife said that i was in a cloud or daze all the time.
after i had realized what i was doing i said to myself i needed to change. and i started to attend church. i had changed my life. got baptized and accepted Jesus into my life. now after i had stop ed what i was doing the lord has put a desire into my heart. He had put the want to teach kids into my heart. i started to help in the kids area and i loved it. but i wanted more. i wanted to put everything i could into the church. i was there everyday. i wanted to learn, to get knowledge, and wisdom from all who work there. i was there for a while and i had learned i lot. but i was my heart was not satisfied. i needed even more. i looked into New Pionte and i love the way it is ran. and i agree with everything that they do. family ran! now i want to get involved there, and try to put myself into the church, as much as i can.
you see this weekend i got hit in the heart. how my old life is not how i want to raise my family. i need to have the word of God raise me, my wife ,and my kids! i have to be honest and confront what is holding me back. yeah i do fall down sometimes and go back to what i use to do. but i look for someone to talk to about what i am going through.God has taken me from being a drug to being a family. and now i just need to man up and look to Him. its easy to say bit hard to do.
